if you felt the need to know more about me, you're in luck! i can pretty much talk about whatever to whoever so oversharing is not something i'm particularly ever worried about. plus on this site, you are getting the full me. no sugarcoating, this is 100% my own self. that's the cool thing about being transgender, i get to actually be me.
instead of making a long ass paragraph about myself that would be a chore to read, here's just a lazy bulletpoint list of things pertaining to myself:
with the basics out of the way, let's get a bit more personal
my hobbies are ever-changing, but i have a couple at the moment. one of which you're seeing right now, my website. i've always wanted to maintain a website i can call my own. i made a shitty cheap forum back in like 2016, i dabbled in HTML in school, and eventually made a couple neocities sites but got way too ambitious. this site you're seeing now is the work i've taken to make this site as simple and enjoyable as possible. a true neutral outlet to pour all of my heart and soul into, to really cement my own little corner of the internet. unlike social media, i don't feel chained to an algorithm or the opinions of stupid people who don't truly give a shit about me anyways. i can be myself and not feel guilty about it.
my other main hobby right now is learning, and writing music. music is something that's been quite complicated in my life. my dad is a lifelong musician, and some of my earliest musical memories were made watching my dad's band practice in the basement when i was very young. i took up learning drums in 2017, but ultimately got no where with it. i then focused a bit on learning piano, and got further along than i did with drums at least. but other than doodling on the keys and learning chords for a few years, i still got no where. i always wanted to make music, but a couple things stopped me in my tracks. one was that music is just really difficult, and i have always had a distaste for the challenging and hard-to-manage. yeah i was a pussy back then, but that leads to the other big factor. i had no confidence. i was in a household with a musician as a dad who knows his shit. i felt inferior, and felt absolutely no confidence that i could truly do much with music. but, i did know deep down that i had the potential, i just never allowed myself to see it through. but that's largely started to change. i bought ableton on a whim in early 2023 and immediately regretted it, as i proceeded to do nothing with it. and then THAT changed in 2024 as i started to dabble in it here and there. within the last month of me writing this, early january 2025, i've finally made some real progress on making music and i've already got a few tracks started and a legit song being written. the process has started to feel fun, and possible. no clue where it will take me, but i'm excited to see what all i can do with this newly found love for music.
besides the main shit, i've got so many different special interests and hobbies. i used to do sim racing a lot back when i was super into NASCAR and other motorsports. but that's taken a backseat as i've grown largely dissatisfied with NASCAR's bullshit and just not really feeling the drive (damn i'm good at these car puns) to put my wheel up on the desk and race again. i am also a licensed amateur radio operator, call sign W4NBT. while i love amateur radio, i just simply don't have the money to put towards it and my local 2M/70CM bands just don't cut it for me. maybe someday i'll get to HF like i want to. on top of that i just love radio as a whole, particularly AM and shortwave. i often listen to the bands at night to see what stations i can pull in through skywave propagation, and its still magic to me. vintage computing is something that not only do i not have money for it, but i certainly don't have the space for it either. but goddamn do i love me an old piece of shit computer running windows 95. video games are one of those things i used to be SUPER into, especially retro games. and i do dust off my old consoles every once in a while, but for the most part they just collect dust on my shelves. i have too much sentimental value in them to sell them off though, as it typically goes with me. dreamcast still rocks though.